Wednesday, April 29

ho hum

My best friend, Christina, drove through downtown last week during the International Festival. She told me all about how Ethiopia was on her left and it was so bright and colorful. Right across the street from Ethiopia was the place you go to meet up with your lost kiddos or find them if they get separated. Christina said it was such a fun thing to see, "Right next to Ethiopia was a big sign that read 'Find Your Children Here' -- because that's what you're doing!"  Doesn't God have a fun sense of humor.

God also has a desire to be our stronghold in hard times. I have been so blessed to not be sad or depressed or too anxious about our referral (way back when!) or even our court date (next Monday!) and I am so thankful for that. But lately, I have found my own struggle in the adoption world: updates.

There have been several families to travel since our referral, all pledging to do their best to look in on our boy. I understand that there are lots of things to prevent that. I understand. Really I do. It's been nice to hear from other families that our boy does indeed exist and that he is well loved. I just really wish someone could tell me something about him. It is so hard to hear again and again that people didn't see him or that he was sleeping in another room. It's even harder to read the updates of children on other family blogs about how their children are smiling and growing and giggling -- or rolling and crawling and walking. I know our little boy is young and not doing a lot, but I just wish that we had something to hold on to. During this complaining and griping is when the Savior reminds me to hold on to Him. 

8 comments:

Tisha said...

I am sure that is so hard. You so badly want to know how he is doing and what he is like. Praying for you. FIVE more days!!

The Bogard Family said...

Nell Ann, Only few more days and hopefully, we both pass court and we can travel together and bring our baby boy's home! I am praying for you!!!

neely said...

totally know the feeling...but we'll be in ethiopia in a few weeks, right??

missy said...

must be so hard not hearing more about him. praying for that court date so you can find out all about him for yourself ASAP!

Guard Wife said...

I can so understand that frustration. But, like you said, God does have a sense of humor. Perhaps He is saving the sweetest of surprises for you when you finally can see your son with your own two eyes.

I'm so excited for you!!!

jody said...

hey-i was there too, exactly the same-never did anyone see her or get back to me or tell me anything and while the wait didn't bother me, the feeling like "is she really there??" sometimes got to be a bit much. i promise to go back thru pics and re-check, and i really did think i got that picture of him and was so excited and told my hubby "that's nell ann's boy!!" so i'm sorry it was a bummer :(

Jana said...

You're getting there girl!! It will be your reality soon. You will have that sweet boy in your arms soon. Praying for you and now that I'm in Austin, I am sure it will work better....:)

Kristi J said...

Hey, it will all be over soon!! Praying for that court date so you'll be smothered in sooo much momminess that you never remember these days wondering "what" he's doing....He'll fill your every waking (and non-waking) moments VERY soon!! So excited that you are almost done!! 24 more days for me :) kj

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