Monday, May 11

being prepared

We're back in our least favorite part of adoption, the unknown. Many families are hanging out here actually, but it's no party. It's so strange to not know, know, then not know again. I thought by now we'd have travel dates, plane tickets, and most of our things packed. 

Life is progressing though. The first day was rough. No crying, but still rough. So many wonderful people kept calling to check and see what we'd heard. Then when the news came, many called or emailed with encouragement or to parallel grief along side us. It's not so bad now. People are still checking in on us, but I don't have any answers. That part is a little rotten. No new court date, no idea for scheduled travel, no plans for bringing baby home. While it's been unexpected, it is not so bad. I feel much more disappointed for the people I have to tell than for myself. Sometimes I catch myself feeling sad for our little guy, spending more and more days away from his family -- but I am reminded that many wonderful people are looking after him and loving him and preparing him for us. (Well, if anyone could really prepare him for us! He is in for such a shocker... I digress) My heart is happy, even if everything is still up in the air. 

I posted on facebook earlier today that I needed some enthusiastic motivation and a friend was kind enough to remind me of James 1:2-4. For those of you who also need some, here you go:

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 

Perhaps it is me who still needs to be prepared! 

6 comments:

"Indescribable" said...

This is the hard part. Hang in there! It's amazing how God's plan will prevail and it's possible that you will see his hand in the schedule.... You may need to be in Ethiopia for someone at a specific time! You are so right about the people loving on your guy! Prayers for the whole roller coaster ride! You will LOVE Ethiopia!

Are These Kids All Yours? said...

That scripture is sooo hard. After hearing it over and over again in our own adoption journies...I know it to be true, but still hard. We will be lifting you up as you wait...again. Glad to know the comfort of a loving Savior in these times!!!!

Jana said...

Hey, when you're in Austin next time let me know. I hadn't checked on facebook for awhile and saw your comment. Would love to meet you. Went running on Town Lake today, loving Texas!!!!!!!

Tracy said...

You have a great outlook.

Thanks for sharing.

xo

Mandy said...

I love it! You are keeping an attitude that is pleasing to the Lord through this trial. I will continue to pray for you guys and hope this trial is over very, very soon!
Love you!
Amanda

Stephanie said...

Praying for you and your little guy!

And thanks for the reminder...

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