Monday, January 12

it's just me

Our official numbers for January 2009 are as follows:
girl: 12
boy: 8
sibling: 10

Unofficially, (of course) we know that we are #2 on the boy list, #8 on the girl list, and #7 on the sibling list. And you know what? I'm pretty much, totally ok with that. 

I'm not going to lie. Last week while all the referrals were flying out I was pretty close to "crazy". I let that tiny thought creep in that it was my turn! A year in the making and it was finally my turn! 

But it wasn't. And that's ok. Our fingerprint issues are still not settled. There is no nursery. In fact, there is no anything for a baby other than a couple pair of footy pajamas. It's not our time. The Lord has been so good to pace our excitement --and anxiety-- level, and to give us a peace beyond understanding. I mean, I am so ready for our baby. I am so ready to paint the nursery, and put together the furniture, and settle on a name and for crying out loud, see a picture of our baby! 

But it's not so overwhelming or overpowering that I can't stand this a little bit longer. I'm trying to really relax and appreciate all this time when it's just me. And just us. 

Because once we see that face, it will never be the same. 


13 comments:

jody said...

enjoy the wait-enjoy all of the process. it is all fun, i wouldn't change th eway our process has gone so far at all :) and yes, it will not ever be the same, yay for that! God is so awesome-just when we think it cannot get any better, He pulls out something new and even more awesome than before. He's cool.

Dawn said...

oh just wait... your time is coming and it will be AMAZING!! oh i am just so excited for you to get the call! now go clean out that room!

Brian and Autumn said...

I am SO ready for you too :)

Renee said...

I read the last line of your post and thought to myself "truer words were never spoken". Having seen that sweet little face of our boy our lives are forever changed..nothing will ever be the same because a piece of your heart leaves you and goes to ethiopia.

"Indescribable" said...

He's in control and takes care of our needs... (I say this after Friday's court date and still not hearing the results yet) So along the road you'll get quick turn around news and not so quick and having God to lean on is the best news ever! HANG IN THERE!

neely said...

I hope you get your referral soon. I think it would be pretty amazing if we got to travel together...Nell Ann and Neely Ann!

neely said...

i think i forgot to mention that my middle name is ann. crazy, huh?

Amber said...

so happy to have found your blog. we are adopting a girl or sib group from ethiopia and i love to read where other families are.
nice to meet you.

Kristi J said...

great post about waiting....You haven't waited but 3 months and 2 weeks?? That is awesome..how did you get to the top so fast...I'm at 5 months and 2 weeks, but I guess that is because we have requested only girl...it must make the wait longer...hopefully we'll see some action soon..can't wait, kristi

Cindy said...

We remain super hopeful!!

Mike & Sharon said...

Oh my gosh, Nell Ann. I can't believe you're so close to getting your referral. I remember reading your blog last year and going through this journey with you for the last 12 months or so. I can't wait til you get your baby's picture. Pryaing for you this week.

Renee said...

oh my gosh just got an email from Kim...did you guys get a referral to???

Troy said...

Any updates for anyone to know about?? :)

If not ... congrats on being #1 ... hopefully it won't be for long!

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