Our official numbers for January 2009 are as follows:
Unofficially, (of course) we know that we are #2 on the boy list, #8 on the girl list, and #7 on the sibling list. And you know what? I'm pretty much, totally ok with that.
I'm not going to lie. Last week while all the referrals were flying out I was pretty close to "crazy". I let that tiny thought creep in that it was my turn! A year in the making and it was finally my turn!
But it wasn't. And that's ok. Our fingerprint issues are still not settled. There is no nursery. In fact, there is no anything for a baby other than a couple pair of footy pajamas. It's not our time. The Lord has been so good to pace our excitement --and anxiety-- level, and to give us a peace beyond understanding. I mean, I am so ready for our baby. I am so ready to paint the nursery, and put together the furniture, and settle on a name and for crying out loud, see a picture of our baby!
But it's not so overwhelming or overpowering that I can't stand this a little bit longer. I'm trying to really relax and appreciate all this time when it's just me. And just us.
Because once we see that face, it will never be the same.